New Beginnings and New Attitudes♥

This past weekend I decided to go completely out of my comfort zone and travel 2 hours away from my home, family and boyfriend for a girls weekend. Big whoop right? Well for me it is a BIG WHOOP. I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and these are heightened when I am out of my safety bubble, but it had to be done. I wanted to push myself and gain a little bit of independence. I was excited to do this and to have a relaxing weekend of sun bathing and wine. At first this was exactly what we did, at first. Going on a trip with single girls while I am in a beyond committed relationship created situations that I did not sign up for. First, it was not a girls trip as all they wanted to do was search for men. I of course, not wanting to revolve the trip around myself, went along for the ride and free drinks. But of course drinking and girls = DRAMA. That is exactly what ended up happening. To make a very long story short, I ended up getting into an argument with one of my friends which led to her refusing me a room key and throwing my stuff outside of the room. This led to the only decision I could think of....have boyfriend come rescue me and bring me home. Of course at first I felt to guilty and upset that I had left them to go home. I cried and tried to explain and even sent apology flowers, all to no avail. Then I got to thinking about exactly what had happened during the weekend. I had been pushed far out of my comfort zone and tried to make the best of it all while having a high level of anxiety. I was left in a parking lot at 1:30 in the morning alone. If I had been given a room key I would've gone back and calmed myself down and everything would've been fine. But I was not given that chance and was left in a situation that could've potentially been very dangerous. Can you blame me for leaving? I sure can't anymore.
Going through this experience taught me multiple lessons. Everything happens for a reason and I need to trust that God has a plan. God brings people in and out of our lives, I know that this friend and I are on very different paths and this happened so I could see that and be ok with moving on. I have so much to be thankful for and am so blessed. I need to stop thinking about what I am missing and look around at all the beautiful things in my life. I am moving on to a new beginning with a new attitude and only have room for positive people and positive outcomes. Sitting here writing this and drinking some vino, I can't help but smile knowing there is a brighter, happier future awaiting me♥

Xoxo, Amy

I'm Back!

WOW. I'm a loser and haven't posted in a long time, but I'm back!

Alrighty let me give you the short version of what's been going on in my world:
1. Got 2 amazing jobs as an Internet marketer/social media expert. Love what I do and get to play on facebook and twitter all day long....BONER!
2. Started using P90X 15 days ago and have lost 8 lbs....SCWHING!
3. Boyfriend and I are looking for apartments...FINALLY!
4. Looking into going to the University of Phoenix for their online BA degree program...BOO YAH!

and that's pretty much it....

Now that I'm back to the blog world (although I have been keeping up amyjoradio.blogspot.com) I am going to continue the spontaneity and spice things up with some health and workout, pop culture, and social media posts. As always I hope you are ready for the crazy inter-workings of my mind.

Ta Ta for Now!
xoxo Amy

Resolutions

It is the second week of 2011 and I am on my way to achieving new goals. First and most important on my list is losing weight. Since high school I have gained a lot of weight and have been hiding for a while behind the fat. Time to get my lazy ass off the couch and into the shape that I know I can be. I have already lost 5 lbs in a week and feel amazing. No more fad diets! I am starting a healthy lifestyle change that I will do for the rest of my life. I am going to eat healthy with organic foods and eat smaller portion sizes totaling less calories. It is amazing how good you can feel when you eat the right way, it may cost more but it is well worth it. I am also working out everyday. Even if I can only fit in 20 minutes, I will continue to be active everyday. I know that everyone and their mother says that they are going to get healthy for the new year but this time I am really doing it!

Next on my list is school. I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and will be transferring to a university shortly! I am so excited and cannot wait to be done with math forever. My goal is to graduate with my bachelors degree in a year and a half with honors. Going to be tough as I am such a procrastinator but I have to do it and get it done and get it done the right way.

Last on my list, I know some will be excited for this revelation, is to quit smoking! After all these years I have finally planted the seed in my brain that I will quit smoking forever. I am keeping this goal as a long term goal but have started to cut back in preparation to quit.

That's all for now! I am so excited to start this new chapter in my life and I hope that I can encourage others to do the same! You are the only thing getting in your way! Theme of my life: NO MORE EXCUSES!